meth drug addict
My ex-husband is a meth addict. I was with him for 11 years, 5 of which he was in prison. I didn’t realize what an addictive personality he had when I married him and had a son with him. Like most women, I think I thought I could save him and make him a better person. Not that he isn’t a good 
person, but when he is doing drugs he is a completely different person.
person, but when he is doing drugs he is a completely different person. Not ever doing any drugs myself I didn’t notice all the signs at first. It wasn’t until after months of drastic mood changes and behavior changes that he finally admitted to me what he was doing. The next 3 years after that got progressively worse. We had brought his 3 kids into our home as well as the son we had together. Not really having a mother in the picture, I felt we were finally giving them a good home where they could have some hope of turning into happy well adjusted kids.
Unfortunately my husband started using meth and that all went up in smoke. He would go off on all of us, especially me, for no reason. He would disappear all the time for hours. When there was a time where we were always together and always did things as a family, he no longer cared to be around us. When he was at home he was either acting like a jerk, or sleeping so hard you couldn’t wake him up for anything. He stopped sleeping in our bed and would spend all his time downstairs watching tv, usually porn.
He would work at a job for a month maximum, and then either quit or get fired and take his sweet time finding another job. I ended up having to get a 2nd job just to support our family of six. This didn’t stop him from writing checks for cash and overdrawing the account, or from spending money on drugs. The more I put up with it the worse it got. No matter what I did it didn’t matter. I could cry, scream, withdraw, beg it didn’t matter. I could issue ultimatums, have him go to marriage counseling, ask that he go to drug counseling, nothing I did worked.
Finally I couldn’t take it anymore and I kicked him out, for good this time. The last two years I have still tried to help him, even after he has threatened me and my family, cheated on me, stole from me, I still try to be there for him. I have gotten him into detox and rehab programs, which he never stays at. I have loaned him money, which he has never paid back. Everything I have tried doesn’t work. He is now in jail again, and I think he might be there for a while this time. At this point I have given up on him. I never thought I would say that, but I don’t know what else to do. I still love him, but it is almost like the love I feel for someone that has passed away. All my good memories of him are spoken about as if he wasn’t here anymore. I still tell my son, who is 5 now, that his daddy loves him but he is just sick right now and maybe one day when he gets better he can see him again. but in the meantime I have pretty much given up hope that he ever will get better.
I hope that anyone that thinks about doing meth, and especially if they have a family, to please think about the fact that you are not only hurting yourself, but you are putting your family through so much grief and pain that they will be scarred forever.
-- Kerry
-- Kerry
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